like only a woman can.
By ca-wyn | August 21, 2008
I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it
She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can
She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her
She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her
Oh, and she changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman
Like only a woman can
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traffic in the sky.
By lisan | August 20, 2008
fuckity fuck fuck fuck. at this point i dont fucking care who reads this man. my brothers, relatives, ca-wyn’s parents, my juniors, whoever okay.
fuckity FUCK LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“It is considered too sexy for us. … It’s not good for viewers in Malaysia,” said Kamarulzaman Mohamed, a party [The youth wing of the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party] official. “We don’t want our people, our teenagers, influenced by their performance. We want clean artists, artists that are good role models.”
you all continue reading there lah. mahai ruin my mood only.
ANYWAYS.
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there’s always no time.
By lisan | August 18, 2008
time is always a factor. for everything. sometimes you lie to people just to make them happy, for them to be contented, for the fact of no factor. and maybe just maybe, tomorrow there will be time for me to be who i am. unless there is no time for me to know who i am. or maybe time just dont exist. the devil knows i’ve cried but the tears turn to plans. no time to swallow the hate. no time to push the anger. there is no time to put up, to shut up, or to confess. but everything is going to be alright. because too much is forever not enough anyways.
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go for gold!
By lisan | August 17, 2008
finals is going to be at 2048 hours later. cant wait cant wait.
lin dan vs lee chong wei.
man. all i just wanna hear is negaraku playing and the jalur gemilang rise up at that stadium. today is the day , where you can see all the malaysians at the mamak stores and restaurants or whereever with the tv scream and shriek in joy because we’re going to win it.
watch this s p a c e. =)
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i bruise easily.
By lisan | August 17, 2008
my skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
and i can’t hide the marks, but it’s not a negative thing
so i let down my guard, drop my defenses down by my clothes
i’m learning to fall, with no safety net to cushion the blow
i bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
there’s a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
i bruise easily, can’t scratch the surface without moving me
underneath i bruise easily
i’ve found your finger prints on a glass of wine
do you know you’re leaving them all over this heart of mine?
but if i never take this leap of faith i’ll never know
so I’m learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow
anyone who can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
anyone who can reach you, can love you, or leave you
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call me irresponsible.
By lisan | August 16, 2008
so - alot has been happening lately. and my mom calls me some monkey that got outta jail or something. just because i go out the whole day whenever its my off day. eh - i follow by the saying “carpe diem” very very closely. tee heee.
it’ll be 5 more days till cheryl leaves for the states , so we met up last night, for probably the last time in a while till she gets back.
ra- raw- rawr- rawrrr-whatcha doinnnnnnn? wtf.
natasha and her omfg-there-are-probably-alot-of-flying-cockroaches-behind-me-now smile.
im in shape. round is a shape. HAHAH. i love this shirt.
bryan and cheryl. poser betul gila babi sial.
so - speaking of off days , today was my off day. and the next week is probably going to be my last week at fridays. sobs. i know. but we’ll see how lah. i got a fatty bum bum to feed so i need the moolah!
i had dinner with the boyfriend. but when he came over -
hair dulu. standard lah.
AND MALAYSIA WON GOLD WHEEEEEEEE. for badminton. apparently the game was damn damn kan cheong. im so proud lah. to see malaysians all so cheapskate-ly semangat-ed. this was the crowd outside fridays just watching the game. and it was also like this at laundry, opposite laundry, royale bintang and everywhere that had live olympics broadcast! but the both of us ended up in . . .
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fancy footwork.
By lisan | August 14, 2008
can you believe it?
its august already.
one year ago - i was cleaning out from my sri damansara house to move to mutiara damansara. i was emo-ing at the balcony the last time i was there, crying my eyes out because sri damansara has been my home for the past 13 years. from kindy till highschool. my friends were all there. i remember moving here and after 3 days i left for Kuching to senior BRATs.
i remember clearly, 2 months plus ago i have finally met joe, who introduced me to ca-wyn. fast forward. our first date, the first klutzy mistake, the first mindhug, first kiss, first many beginnings to many other beginnings. also the beginnings to many unexpected things that i never thuoght would happen and honestly speaking, i really dont like it when it happens. but what to do - *shrugs* - phase of life, right?
and now - people are leaving. alex, penny and jie has gone to aussie. friends like cheryl and su ann are going to the states. and im already going to start my second year in event management this end of the month. and in another blink of an eye, i’d be graduating and then working my arse till august 2010 and hopefully doing my degree in uk - yeah - like finally.
friends come and go, some stay static but some jut fade in and out of the picture, only looking for you when they need you. some claim to be bff’s but deep down inside, as much as you try to hold on to that fragile friendship, you realise you’re losing grip as days goes by. thank goodness for the advance technology of internet, phones and such - and its only because of blogs that you know where you stand.
well - we live and we learn. dont we?
its funny how things can just change in a matter of jut a month, what more a year. some grew up, some stayed immature.some shrunk otb e even more immature. one year later , i’d probably be looking back at the times i had and re-reading this post in the uni’s computer lab where i’d be in my final year. laughing back at the atrocious english i dumped on this poor page.
this was suppose to be a short update. look at what it turned out to be. tsktsk.
its already august. dayumn. time really flies huh?
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save your kisses for me.
By lisan | August 13, 2008
today shall be a day of random photos.
nyehs.
i haz smilez. on mai speakers. : )
junior killed someone and was caught at the scene of the crime. gasp gasp. im too lazy to think of any captions lah.
had lunch with jirwan and miuks the other day. so jirwan decided to show off his new canon dslr. and he had this , fish eye thing. that seemed like part of a lomo but but obviously not lah. so, this is the effect of using that lense. haha.
close kedai. hahah.
someone came by with these today this morning. made me smile. =D
oohs. i went to nottingham yesterday. note the clear blue skies. damn nice. =) hardly can get that in kl / city areas lah.
yes. the boyfriend humping the best friend.
harvind. muka. rambut. macam. singa.
can see rugan at the back of the truck tak?
nah. chill saja the fella. even when cawyn breaked or whatever.
this is them trying to cram in the car.
no more pictures.
nothing to say.
kthxbai.
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boom-de-yada.
By lisan | August 10, 2008
just the other day i watched 21 - which btw is not a good movie. soo draggy lah - and you know they have those commercials before the movie starts? there was one that caught my eye and now its stuck in my head. hahah. the discovery channel : i love the world song. =)
can you believe this video has already been almost 6 months old and now only i saw it in the cinema? i dunkno if they have it on astro discovery channel or not lah because excusez-moi que je n’ai pas astro.
this is another case , just like how obssesed i was with the sony erricson advert that only has one freaking line. haha.
I love the mountains
I love the clear blue skies
I love big bridges
I love when great whites fly
I love the whole world
And all its sights and sounds
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
Boom De Yada
I love the ocean
I love real dirty things
I love to go fast
I love egyptian kings
I love the whole world and all its craziness. 
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wakey wakey.
By lisan | August 9, 2008
there was this morning somewhat a month plus ago. i was at langkawi and i could hear the waves crashing down on the shores in the wee hours of the morning. i was too dumbstruck to move when i realized there was someone hugging me from the back with his steady breathing together with mine. i woke up confused as to what time of the day it was or what we were doing. and then i realized there was a we to begin with.
he must have noticed how stiff i went regardless if it was 4 am in the morning, because he just kissed my back and hugged me tighter. and when he enveloped me into his arms and kissed me on the nose. he then whispered sweet words at the tip of my ear, just enough to tickle me - his typical way of reassuring me that everything was alright.
i told myself “this is it. this is who i will spend the rest of my life with.” and when i mean the one, im serious about it because he promised. when he talks to the mother, there is this unspoken vow that they both have exchanged. when he talks to the brother bear, there is this sign of him promising my brother that he will take good care of me.
thats when i started to let go, and relaxed. because at that point i knew where i was exactly and how i felt. how this feeling is never going to change one bit in many years.
now every morning when i wake up, i hear ” good morning sayang.” with a hug or a kiss - i am even sure that he is the one. i’m scared. really scared. but i’ve never been this brave as well. he may be too good to be true, but he’s all mine.
the feeling of waking up next to your loved ones. bliss.
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